Since I don't write regularly diary-like about what I've been up to in each day, here's a compilation of some of the highlights of my free time activities so far. There's surprisingly much to do without having to travel too far, and since I've adopted the "I have plenty of time for sleep in Finland" -mentality, I tend to say yes to everything and hardly have any time to feel bored. :D

I had my friend Maasa visit me the last weekend and we paid a visit to the Science Museum in Sakae. (We'd tried to go there with Elisa during the Golden Week, but that proved to be a bad idea when we saw the line that reached to the street... Popular attracions are even more popular during the Golden Week so it's best to just lock yourself indoors at that time.) This museum sports the biggest planetarium in the world! And the planetarium sports the most suitable environment for dozing off... cozy armchairs, dim lightning, the soothing voice of the soryteller... Yup, had a really nice nap under the starry skies. Apart from the planetarium, the museum has a crazy lot of stuff to see and do. From molecule models to dinosaur skeleton replicas and wonky mirrors, they've got it all. I didn't probably get the most out of it though, since everything was in Japanese. Still well worth the money (only 500 yens with a student card!). 

One of my other favorite past-time hobbies is of course ~*shopping*~, but that deserves an own post. Mata ne ^_^)/ 

So here in Japan there are two major religions, buddhism and shinto, which seem to co-exsist in a perfect harmony considering that we had our school starting ceremony in a buddhist temple (otera) and yesterday the school had a field work day so we visited a shinto shrine (jinja). The amount of shrines and temples is quite surprising, they're literally everywhere. 

Mah gawd that was a lot of photos. This is only one trip so I'll have to make a part 2 with the rest of the shrines and the few temples I've been to, can't just throw all the photos to waste! XO All in all it was a great trip and I'm looking forward to the next field work day we'll be having in the next month ^_^)/

Where to start. First two weeks I had to go without an internet connection so things have piled up quite a bit. Still no culture shock, other than how difficult setting up an internet connection can be (these people still use modems??!?). I'm affraid I'll get fat because there are too many yummy breads to eat but finding a good salad is really difficult. The Japanese throw cabbage into every dish though. EVERY SINGLE ONE. And if you go to the supermarket and look for ready-made salads, they looks real nice and all, and then you turn the plastic container upsaid down and you find that under the pretty toppings, there's just loads and loads of cabbage beneath it all. You ordered a soup? Let's throw some shredded cabbage on it. I'm already starting to hate cabbage, though it still manages to amuse me, finding cabbage from more and more surprising places. Maybe it's just a Nagoya area specialty?

I hate how if I'm stressed or/and nervous, I get physically sick. It starts with nausea and when it gets bad, I get stomachache. 

.( ̵˃﹏˂̵ ) Lately I've been super busy and stressed, I didn't even have the time to watch the Kardashians! </3 And I haven't been drawing anything non work-related for like two weeks. Partly it's because I finally got to the last page of my sketchbook and I didn't dare to start drawing in the new one yet because it's so pretty and clean and pristine... (°◡°♡)

My diary entries are getting pretty boring because NOTHING INTERESTING HAPPENS when you sit at home alone all week. Mostly I worry about the state of the country and world and the people and give myself a headache and depression but I don't think that's something I'd like to remember later on so don't want to fill my sketchbook with that poop.༼ ಥ ‿ ಥ ༽ Actually it's quite difficult to get used to being alone when you've been living with someone, even though at first it's like "YEAA FREE TIME I'M GONNA DO ALL THE STUFF AND DECIDE WHAT IS ON THE MENU AND WHEN" but then you realize that even if you're just wasting time on FB, it's just not the same when there's no one playing that stupid PS game with the annoying music behind you for the fourth hour in a row. But, I should prepare for going on an exchange in March, though. YEAH I'm going to Japan for 4 and half months! ﾟ･✿ヾ╲(｡◕‿◕｡)╱✿･ﾟ

Anyways have some (boring) comic diary pages, and btw, it's allowed to leave a comment. 

I have been keeping a comic diary for about 5 years already (less or more actively), but didn't publish it even though I've been meaning to because I couldn't decide if I should make a separate blog for it, maybe in Finnish only since most of the diary entries are in Finnish, but whatevs, I think drawings are anyway more interesting than the long blocks of text I'd fill this blog with otherwise. So here you go, (most of) the entries done so far in 2016 :-) 

Finally got around to updating my site since it was looking real shitty and... repulsing... so maybe now I'll be able to get a bit more active with it ^^'' 

I've been working on this game (you can keep an eye on the progress on Facebook!) called Nyheim. They were looking for graphic designers in the Autumn and I've been there since, learning a lot of new cool stuff about coloring and animating :3 here's something I've contributed to the game so far:

I'll throw in some more stuff to Gallery. Mostly I've done lineart, but currently I'm working on the ending screens which require also coloring and animated effects so yeah, my career as an animator is kicking off ;-) 

So, Animecon was last weekend and it was my first time attending a con without attending any of the panels or shows or anything! So the experience was a bit dull, I felt so out of place there since I've been out of the anime and manga scene for a while already. I now understand that I went there with a quite the wrong attitude, too serious and focused on getting my stuff sold. But I'll be wiser next time!  ヽ(⌒∇⌒")ﾉ

I was selling my clay jewelry and handmade bows. There's still so much left so I'm hoping I can get a table from Tracon in September but I don't know about that yet. I'm planning to make some prints too, if I get the place! It was really inspiring to see all the different kinds of prints peple were selling at the Art Alley (I bought two fabulous originals, yay!) so gotta start drawing while I'm still excited about it. It was also quite inspiring to see how much peoplewere buying them--- SHUSH I'm only doing anything because of the joy of it, no profit in mind! (´∇ﾉ｀*)ノ he he... hee...

Look at my lik' baby riding a bicycle(basket), enjoying the first warm days and the sun~~! (⌒▽⌒)☆ She got her vaccinations taken yesterday and now she can play with other doggies and make a lots of friends. She's always so excited when she sees other animals (and humans too) and she just would love to be friends with everyone, and now she can ^^,
 annndd vaccinations are expensive as shit so I'm glad I won't need to worry about paying for them until after one year again. Phew!

Playing with Rin has lately been the high point of my day because I'm always home alone. And she's funny. So I made a funny comic. ENJOY!!1!

Because she thinks she's such a big, strong watchdog and tries to boss around bigger dogs even though she's actually a miserable little mouse! tehehe.

Not so fond of her right now though, just found my phone charger in two pieces. Thank you Rin, I was using that too much anyway.

Askar moved to Kajaani and I don't know what to do with myself. I know I should study but it doesn't feel important or interesting when I'm just being lonely all the time. I want to move to live with him but there's really nothing for me in Kajaani. I did apply to few schools in hopes of getting excited about thinking of the possibiltiy of moving to somewhere new but I don't think I'm going to move anyway. My first choice, animatio studies in Turku, is interesting as a subject but Turku is waaaay too far. Second choice was jewelry making in Kuopio but the branch doesn't have a lot of job openings and Kuopio is not really that much different from Oulu, except that the rents are higher. Third one was game developement in Kajaani. I don't think it's something I really want to study nor is Kajaani the city where I want to live (I just left it!) but it's where Askar is. :( If I think about it, I ofcourse realize that I shouldn't throw everything aside just to be with him, but my guiding idea in life has always been to do what makes me happy and what my heart tells me to do (very Disney, yes) and staying behind is not it!

So Askar is opening his own cafe now that he got the green light from the funding companies and while I'm proud and happy for him, I can't help but envy him for finding the thing he wants to do and is good at. He's comfortable living alone as long as he can reach me on phone whenever he misses me and he's got his friends and family near him. And I'm here, all by myself, wondering whar to do with my life. At least Rin is always waiting for me to get home from school... but while she's the sun of my days, when I took her, I thought I wouldn't be taking care of her alone. It gets really tiring at times. And then I feel bad because Rin has so much energy and se wants to play all the time but all my energy goes to school, house chores, walking her, homework and worrying ;___;

Well anyway, have some fluffy furball photos as a souvenir from this lovely ride to depression!:

She had her first vaccinations last week and she was so brave *3* she can already sit, lay down, stand on two feet, give pawn, fetch and stay a bit. :> mommy so proud! 

SHE'S HERE SHE'S FINALLY HERE and omg she's the cutest thing ever T__T

On Thursday we drove to my relatives place near to Tampere (took about 7 hours) and stayed the night so that on Friday we could drive to Merikarvia to the breeder and get back to Oulu before night. The drive from relatives to breeder took a bit longer than planned because we got lost in the small roads so we were there after 12am annnnddd since we were so early to take our pup (she's not quite 8 weeks yet but according to breeder ready to be separated from her mom) so her sister and brothers were there still and it was so sweet, they were such bouncy little gang of furballs I almost fainted of all the cute. Here's the whole pack:

She was the smallest of them all but the bravest; she was the first to come meet us and didn't mind being handled and she's taken the whole separation thing so well! She's already completely at home with us and is such a cheeky little adventurer :> We're calling her Rin but not sure if that's going to stay. I'm so happy to finally have my pup! And Askar is so mesmerized by her too. He's got a stupid smile on his face every time he sees Rin :D my babies <3

Ok, first of all, THIS IS MY PUPPY the breeder finally chose which one is for me and omg she's the cutest little fella ever and I'm dying 8D

Still a bit unsure about the name, I had already almost decided she'll be called Rin but now that I see her tiny face I'm thinking that Nana would not be a bad choice either. Ah well, still two weeks left to decide >__< Today I'll finally order a sack of food for her and next week, FOOD BOWL SHOPPING~ (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧

My boy has been back in Kajaani working for the last week, and well. The guy he's working for has two cafés, and he's trying to make honey buy the newer one. It's quite nice, the bussiness is going good and I'm sure he'd love to be an owner and actually do something since he's been unemplyed for half a year now (he hasn't been able to find a job in Oulu), and he'd be really good at that job. But the problem is, I'm stuying in Oulu. So he'd have to move to Kajaani, which he's planning on. At first I thouhgt, OK, it's not that far so I'll just stay here to study while he's working there, but I don't think I can manage that afterall! The second problem is that on the other hand, I don't want to live in Kajaani. The only reason for me to move back there would be him (and well, my parents live there too but I see them often as it is anyway), and there's nothing for me to study there and since I don't have a profession, I can't really work (cause I'm not going back to phone service!!). So even if I stayed here to graduate, what about then? He'd still be an owner of a cafe in Kajaani and I do not want to be stuck there for the rest of my life! THEN AGAIN, if I compare my mental health and energy levels to where I was before I met him and to the current situation, I can't help but make the assumption that it's thanks to him I've survived this long and been able to study and whatnot. So, if I was to live apart from him, would I even be able to keep on studying? On the other hand, I think that my doggie will give me energy, but I'm also affraid that if I slip back to what I used to be, I wouldn't be able to even take care of my pet :( So, all concluded, I must move with him. But what will I do in Kajaani? What will I become, or will I become anything? Does moving there mean putting aside my dreams? Is it better to lose the sight of my dreams and goals than losing the will to live, or are these two the same thing?

I'm quite lost, and I'd apprecciate a map.

It's still three weeks before I can go to pick my pup, and the waiting is killing me! I've read three puppy guidebooks already the first week I got to know I'll be getting one, and I've surfed internet for hours reading articles and forums, comparing pet food and leash prices, ordering beds and collars and bombing the breeder with e-mails and now I feel like I've read everything possible, done all the "select the right breed for you!" and "are you ready to have a dog?" -quizes the internet has to offer and I just don't know how to spend my time anymore D:

First photo: one of these will be mine <3 but I don't know which one yet, because the breeder wants to wait and see what color they will turn out. I can't decide on the name before I know what she looks like...!

Second & third photo: I was trying to stop myself from buing anything too early on as not to jinx the whole thing, but I just couldn't help myself when I saw all those cute, pastel color, shiny pet accesories at eBay...! So I ordered a strawberry-looking bed and a pink collar (with a matching lesh!) for her, since anyway they will take about a monthto arrive, and I want to have these basic things ready by the time she comes home >__< later I will buy so many blingy collars for her... Maybe even a jacket for winter... I'm way too excited about this

ヾ(＠゜▽゜＠）ノ

I think honey is getting excited too, he's talking about which dog he'll have in the future. Unfortunately, even though he's really animal-loving and will for sure love the little fluffball, he's more into big and strong dogs like Rotweiler or Doberman... I'd worry a Doberman would eat my little fluffball : I

I'M GOING TO HAVE A PUPPY LIKE A REAL PUPPY NO STUFFED ANIMAL PUPPY I'M PEEING MYSELF OMG she's so tiny now, just 2,5 weeks but it won't be until the end of February that I can go bring her home and and and I don't know what to say I think I'm going to explode maydaymayday send help ＼（Ｔ∇Ｔ）／

Lately it looks like everywhere around me, old couples are breaking up or planning it. All my friend's parents are divorced. My neighbours have been married for closer to 30 years, but they've had an odd situation going on for a good while where they sleep in another rooms and probably don't even talk to eachother. Mothers' best friend divorced a while back after she found out that her husband had another family in Morocco and a girlfriend(s?) here in Finland. My uncle, who has been with the same woman he started dating when they were both just teenagers, and now have three kids, a nice house and a puppy with, is getting divorced. My boyfriend's mom tries to fiend the courage to run with the kids from her abusive alcoholic husband. Even my parents have been thinking about the possibility of divorce for years now.

It makes me wonder, is it possible to love the same person for all your life? Love is something I have always trusted in, and I loving with passion has always been the biggest trait of my personality. But what if loving isn't enough? I'm scared to think that even though I love my boyfriend from all my heart today, what if after a year, after five or ten years, I can't even bear the sight of him? I'm not sure how could I live in a world where something I have trusted in so blindly could let me down. Maybe I'm naive, but I've thought that as long as I follow my heart, I won't be lost. But is my heart leading me astray? Can I trust in the directions it's giving me? What if all the effort I've put to my relationships has, in the end, been for nothing? I'm already somewhat unstable, so having these thoughts shake my world are really a bit too much right now.

Someone told me before that "if love is everything for you, your life is seriously going to suck", and up until now I've figured that I've proved him wrong, finding happiness again after every fall. But how many times can I take the fall before it's too much? I used to be sure that my boy is the one for me, that we'll live happily together until we both die of old age in our sleep while holding hands. It never even occured to me that after overcoming the difficulties in the beginning of our relationship, after building a peaceful life together, some day in the future we could just... drift apart.

I don't know what to make of this. I just feel utterly scared.

I - I - I did it! I've been fantazicing about opening an online shop since 8th grade and now... it's done *__* Check it out! The Little Cake Factory (*‿*✿) I wish I had half this much energy when it comes to schoolwork and I'd be off to a really good start. I even made a lightbox specially for photographing my jewelry!

It's stylish, no? I used this tutorial to make it and this one for the bow necklaces you can find in my shop. And now I'm going to add more stuff to sell >:) buy a lot!

I had my ~*grand first apperanace*~ last Saturday at Chibicon! I didn't sell so much, probably because it was not so big of a happening, but the lovely girl next to me (whose products were btw much prettier and CHEAPER TOO) cheered me by telling that she's been to so many cons and it's not usual to sell so little for her too, so I shouldn't give up. I was too shy to even ask for her name but I would really have liked to discuss techniques and what not with her... But I got her visiting card! You can check her awesome stuff here! ^_^)

Anyway it was a good experience and I think I'll head to a bigger con next time. Annndd Askar is sitting next to me playing and reading this as I write and complaining that I didn't mention that he was there with me so YES ASKAR IS A BEST BOYFRIEND IN THE WORLD AND IT'S SO NICE THAT HE WAS THERE TO KEEP ME COMPANY FOR ALMOST THE WHOLE TIME. And I'll take him next time too, to carry my bags. He's good at carrying bags.

Later I'll upload more detailed photos and info (in case some mystical secret reader of my blog would like to order something ~__~) but now I can't because I left my jewelry at mom's, because she wanted to show them off to her friends at work :D she's my number one fan for sure. I was thinking about opening an online shop, but I think I'll get some more face-to-face selling experience first... I'm thinking about reserving a table to the Christmas market, but they're kinda expencive :S maybe my number one fan would like to show her support and fund my project... ^__^''

Long time no post! School's started and I'm busy with homework, housework and of course wild student life! ^__^ Currently I'm having my photo manipulation class, and since I was super effective (and colorful!) with my anti advertisement assignment (the finished work you can see above), I'm using the leftover time for blogging, yay! 

I don't know much about aspartam but I hate zero drinks, they taste like poopoo :( 

Since I got accepted to the school and I will be moving in next week, I figured I'd throw a farewell party together with my sister and my cousin since they'll be moving around the same time. Now I'm wondering what the hell was I thinking. It seems like none of my "friends" are planning to show up, just like they didn't the last time I held a party, or any other time when I invited them for that matter. Guess I thought that since it's porably the last chance when we'll all be able to hang out together, they would care enough to come send me off. And this is not just temporary depression talking; it's been like this for a long time. Sure, we've all probably changed after highschool but I just don't understand why they act like I'm some sort of gadfly. When we do go out, we have a really good time, but whenever I invite them out or start a chat on facebook, they don't have time or money or the right shoes or they are sick or whatever. If I've learned one thing, it'd be that "I'll call you as soon as I know when I have the time to meet up" actually is just a nice way to say "I'm not interested in meeting and I will never call you back". It hurts. I genuinely don't know what's it about me that makes me such an annoyance that no one wants to be friends with me. Every time we go out to clubbing, one of my friend gets really touchy-feely and can't stop repating that I'm so important to her, that she'll be there for me always, but as soon as she's sober, she won't even return my messages. I've wondered if it because I'm so tight with my boyfriend, but I don't think that can be it since I've never skipped meeting them because of him or anything like that, and besides, one of my friends is also living with his guy but that doesn't seem to stop my friends from hanging out with each other. Yeah, I've tried getting new friends, but it looks like everything thinks I'm so cute and funny and wondeful but somehow only an acquitance -material. Just... why? I'm kind and considerate, I'm funny and spontaneous and generous and I don't even look too bad, but for some unknown reason I repell people. I'm just hoping that I will finally make some real friends when I start in the new school after two weeks, otherwise I don't know what I should do with myself... (゜´Д｀゜)

At least my boy cares for me: he was supposed to stay at his parents for the night, but he just called me and told he'll come to me instead because he don't want me to be sad alone (◡‿◡✿)

My honeyboo is in Kazakstan still (he left in last month and is going to retun after 10 days) so I have been trying to distract myself with shopping! My wallet weeps but my closet is finally starting to look like I've wanted it to (●´∀｀●)

That's about it, I guess. I don't have much inspiration to do anything, not even my clay work, without my boy around. :( Oh, I got accepted to study btw! Meaning I will be moving to a new city next month. So exciting, can't wait to get to decorate my new apartment  ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ I think I'll take a small flat with a reasonable rent for now, since pretty much all the apartments have been rented already and I don't have so much to choose from, but I think after a year when schools finishes and there's more free flats again, I'll find a better one :> hoping Askar will move with me! >__<

This little fella had fallen from its nest to mom's water decoration thingy, where it was sitting on a fake leaf of a water lily when mom found him. We checked the nest, but there was no one there, so we took him and fed him :) first he was scared, trying to escape, but once he figured that being held meant food, he didn't want to be left alone at all >.< we named him Tiuku. He really ate a lot! Unfortunately he died the following night, I guess he was suffering from a schock or he got hurt when he fell （；￣д￣） but I'm convincing myself that his last day was a good one.

So my boyfriend terminated our rental lease before finding a new apartment and now he's going to Kazakstan for almost one month so I get to move back in with my parents for that time ┐(￣ヮ￣)┌ so we've been packing now already so I don't need to do everything alone while he's gone. Moving in a new place is always exciting, but moving out is not so much fun.  (；￣Д￣）

But at least it's inspiring. ^__^)''

So, my sister graduated and we had tons of fun. A limo picking us up for going to club is not too shabby, eh? 〜(￣▽￣〜)

I've opened the cake factory again, I will post photos of my creations soon (●´∀｀●)

I got a letter from the school that was my first choice (well, it was just a rejection letter but...) It turns out, that they have not received my pre-tasks. This is really unlucky since this one was the only school I actually did remeber to send the pre-tasks to (my second choice school sent me an email that the sector I applied to will not be even organized this year). My life is so exciting and full of unexpected adventures. ('___') anyway I'm going to send them a letter and say they're all a punch of slimy squids if they don't do something about the matter (since it's clearly not my fault they didn't get my pre-tasks, I followed their instructions thorough!) and maybe they will feel bad enough and let me do the entrance exam.  (⌒▽⌒)☆

So I've been eating biotine for what, two weeks now? So far no visible changes. I'll keep waiting.

I'm so happy it's finally summer, I can't help smiling! The winter must have been the longest one of my life. I thought it'd never end... Since it's so sunny and happy and warm, I decided to try something new instead of my boring, brown everyday makeup:

Tomorrow my sister is having a big graduation party so I will make myself look super cute and then I'll post millions of photos of my pretty face to every social channel I know (◡‿◡✿) Oh, by the way, I quit my job. YAY

the best part of living without mum: being able to eat whatever I want!

not-so-good part of living with boyfriend: not being able to eat whatever I want (´＿｀。)

Yesterday was such a good day! I got a letter from the school I applied to and they invited me to the second part of the tests (which is quite cool considering that over 300 people participated in the first part but only 60 got invited to the second part, and I'm one of them!), I finally got money from the Social Insurance Institution (yup, totally had to use a translator to find that phrase) so now I can buy food again (yay!) and overall, sun was shining, I was wearing nice new clothes, I got ice cream and beat some new levels in Candy Crush... °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

Lately I have been absorbed into polymer clay crafting! I hope to sell this stuff some day. :3 Here's what I've been working on:

My hands are now all the time sticky :( but I'm quite lucky to have a boyfriend who understands my creative needs, which means that the coffee table is never free for his stuff because I like to leave my craftings out so I can easily continue whenever I want (◡‿◡✿) but he's not complaining as long as I remeber to cook for him! Love you boo!  (´∀｀)♡

//my dream apartment is no longer available ;___; boohoo

I was in an entrance exam yesterday, and I think I rocked it! Just waiting for the results now.

Lately I have been thinking that what if there's nothing after death? What if we only have this one shot of life? If it's like that, I want to be the best I bossibly could in this life. That's why I've started "improving" myself (deciding there's no time to waste!): I've been actively going to the gym for about 3 months already so my figure is being taken care of, but now I've taken to test this biotine-thingy that everyone seems to be cheering for. Supposedly it will make my hair grow faster and nails stronger (which I really need, I'm getting grazy of my chipping stupid nails).

I got an invitation to a test to determine wether I'm fit to study in this school I applied to... and I'm so crazy excited, I've already chosen the apartment I want from that city and I haven't even gotten accepted there yet...!! (￣◇￣;) but isn't it just perfect?

So much light and everything has been renovated and updated and still it's not too expencive <3 but I guess I have to take a deep breath now and accept the fact that this one is probably not available anymore at the time I get (if I get) accepted to study there... (.__.)"